I am a 16 year old pedophile. (self.sex)

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40 ups - 20 downs = 20 votes

Hi everyone. I'm a 16 year old from the united states. Before I get this ball rolling, I'll just let everyone know I'm using anonymity software as well as a throwaway account for this.

I was raised in a middle class home with a loving family. I was never very sheltered and I was always rather shy and very much an introvert when I was young. I was bullied throughout elementary school, never had a girlfriend, became socially frustrated, etc.

I'm your typical high school student. I'm smart, although I don't apply myself. I'm a bit of a class clown and quick witted. I'm a really dorky awkward guy, but in that lovable way that most people have come across. I'm handsome, but I have low confidence with girls. I'm well-learned, I'm a good writer and artist, and I'm pretty outgoing now.

I first started browsing 4chan's /b/ around 3.5 years ago. I quickly found incredibly quirky and strange porn, although having no reference point for pornographic content, I didn't know any better. I subsequently started fapping to CP, not knowing the disastrous nature and horrible consquences of the content. I was simply turned on by the images I saw. Although I wasn't sheltered, per se, I was never very exposed to anything like this, and I was incredibly ignorant towards the repercussions of this taboo illegal subject matter.

I continued this for a year or so, becoming the typical edgy hardened /b/tard that you'd normally find on the underbelly of the Intenet. I suppose you could say I've "recovered" from that stage, so I'm more or less your average teen now... with a few unusual paraphilias (to put it lightly). I don't blame anyone for unearthing my pedophilia; I think it had simply lurked below me and finally became uncovered after I was exposed to a little bit of it.

I would never even dream of assaulting a young child. Even the thought of it disgusts me. After I masturbate to it, I'm almost always overwhelmed with self-loathing and sometimes nausea. But I can't stop myself. Similar to how you can't magically become un-gay, I can't magically become un-pedo. I don't consider myself a sociopath in the least. I'm very caring towards other people, I help with animal shelters, I've worked in food kitchens, and I almost consider myself spiritual in the sense of "We have a limited time here on Earth; use it to make a positive impact on others".

I'm making this post after checking out this thread, which was on the top of the subreddit. I'd like to offer some insight in case anyone's still interested.

I've never sought any kind of therapy for this "thing". I wouldn't even know where to begin. "I like little kids"? No, I see no way of having a moderate approach towards my "illness" or whatever you choose to call it in our modern society.

I'm using this partly to get all of this off my chest (I've never even thought of talking about any of this with anyone), and to let others see inside the mind of someone inflicted with pedophilia. No, I cannot provide proof. I am not a troll either, although some people will undoubtedly jump to that conclusion.

Ask me stuff.

60 comments submitted at 22:07:24 on Feb 11, 2013 by The16yopedo

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  • Archammes
  • -14 Points
  • 22:20:18, 11 February

No.

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  • The16yopedo
  • 3 Points
  • 22:26:26, 11 February

I legitimately understand why I'm going to see some people downvote this out of disgust or simply shake their heads and keep scrolling, but the point of me making this is so other people can see what I'm going through in a purely academic way.

There's a lot of misconceptions about pedophilia, including that the people who have it are deranged psychopaths who will stick their penis in almost anything. I think those are just the ones that make the news. I'm certain there's many self-loathing pedophiles who productively work in society and have this burden on their shoulders every minute of their life.

Edit: Accidentally a few words.

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  • Archammes
  • -11 Points
  • 22:34:22, 11 February

As someone with a mental health background, I perfectly understand that paraphilias are deeply ingrained and completely misunderstood. That fact notwithstanding, you're asking people to discuss a paraphilia that is very illegal.

Not to mention, despite any effort you make to the contrary, we have no way of proving that a) you're not a troll, b) this isn't just shock attention seeking, and c) just...no.

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  • eugenesbluegenes
  • 7 Points
  • 00:14:24, 12 February

Thoughtcrime?

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  • SOPpika
  • 5 Points
  • 22:55:05, 11 February

Women discuss rape fantasies here constantly, i didn't see anyone outraged that rape is illegal. OP is a lost misguided child himself, and if you read everything, he has no intention of harming anyone. I think this is a good outlet for him, a chance to really evaluate his situation, let's not discourage that.

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  • Archammes
  • -1 Points
  • 01:06:20, 12 February

Rape fantasies are, even if the fantasy is "rape", consensual by nature and therefor not illegal. Your logic is flawed.

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  • Tarblz
  • -1 Points
  • 01:33:21, 12 February

Ever been to /r/trees? That's like illegal central right there.

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  • Archammes
  • 1 Points
  • 02:31:39, 12 February

Not a chance. If I'm going to get down votes for not supporting a pedophile baring his soul on the internet (and for all you guys know getting some sick gratification out of stringing you all along on his merry little tale), I can only imagine the reaction I'd get when faced with a bunch of stoners.

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  • Tarblz
  • 1 Points
  • 02:33:27, 12 February

Ha, I actually feel the same way about that place.

I don't think it should be legalized, but that's my own opinion, it looks like the majority and I disagree on it.

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  • somniopus
  • 1 Points
  • 02:10:05, 12 February

Actually weed is not illegal everywhere. Pedophilia, on the other hand, most certainly is.

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  • Tarblz
  • 0 Points
  • 02:10:42, 12 February

/r/cocaine

I've got all of reddit as ammo, I'm sure there's something illegal on here.

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  • somniopus
  • 1 Points
  • 02:21:56, 12 February

Okay... And? Because people talk about drugs on Reddit the fact that pedophilia exists is A-OK?

Okay, Trolly McAsserson.

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  • Tarblz
  • 1 Points
  • 02:28:13, 12 February

>That fact notwithstanding, you're asking people to discuss a paraphilia that is very illegal.

Was the original topic of this conversation, I was merely trying to prove that just because something is illegal, doesn't mean we can't have a mature discussion about it.

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  • The16yopedo
  • 12 Points
  • 22:36:51, 11 February

I don't believe it's illegal to discuss anything, as long as pictures aren't attached. I remember when a recovering pedophile actually did an AMA way back on r/IAmA.

And yes, I have no way of proving any of those things. I have my own safety to consider.

Thanks for the input though.