I was raped and now I have sex all the time (self.confession)
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I was raped October 10. It caused me to have extreme pain in my vagina for a week afterwards. I had tons of bleeding, and abdominal pain. It hurt to cough, or talk too loud... I never saw a doctor for it because I was so ashamed to tell someone I was raped. I was also afraid that something was terribly wrong "down there." I was trying to hold myself together, and if I went to the doctor, and was told something was torn or something bad, then I would have completely spiraled outta control. I healed up after three weeks. The problem now, is that I am horny all of the time. I didn't have a strong sex drive before that, but for some reason I feel like I want to have sex all the time. I put up posts on craigslist to email dirty pics with men, I have sexted with men I met through craigslist (haven't met up with any of those men). I have never done that before. I also got a boyfriend, and we have sex all the time. I have had more sex in the past few weeks, than I have had in the last five years. The rape was one of the worst, most devastating things that has ever happened to me in my entire life, so why am I like obsessed with sex now? The idea of the rape makes me so upset and I can't even talk about it, or think about it too long or I have a meltdown. So why is my sex drive so strong now? I don't understand it, and I am so confused. Has anyone else experienced this? Just to make it clear, I do not find anything about the rape sexy, no rape fantasies or anything. Maybe I am trying to get the power I lost, back?
32 comments submitted at 22:53:51 on Nov 23, 2013 by throwaway03241983